Why Is my Blog Called Lick My Evil?
It’s about having the courage to look at the ugliest parts of ourselves and our story without flinching.
You may be wondering where the title Lick My Evil came from.
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But we’re starting with heartbreak.
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That being said, You may be wondering where the title Lick My Evil came from.
The truth is, it was born from heartbreak and some hard-won wisdom.
That wisdom is about having the courage to look at the ugliest parts of ourselves and our story without flinching. I’m not talking about blaming ourselves for what’s happened,
Oh no.
But when we have the courage to look at ourselves and our part in what happened, and really look at the clues we missed, because we were busy, because we were lying to ourselves, or unable to deal with problems in the relationship for whatever reason.
If we have the courage to look at ourselves and master ourselves without judgement, then we are free.
To give ourselves the space to exercise our inner beast and roar for a while, then we are free to move forward with a clearer vision for our future and of who we are as people.
Let me explain…
There was a crossroads in my life when I was angry with my ex-partner.
I was angry with some of the women around him. I couldn’t find the sisterhood I’d always believed in. I was angry with people who seemed able to watch another woman’s pain without a second thought and, to some extent, either true or imaginary, revel in it.
It was a dark time where I felt etherically nibbled at, as though life had unleashed a plague of invisible creatures to take tiny bites out of my confidence, my hope for a future I thought I had, and eventually my spirit.
If anything could go wrong, it did. I felt as though unseen forces were tossing me around in the relentless swarm of locusts, while everyone else watched me struggle.
Hoping I would disappear.
Powerlessness doesn’t begin to cover it.
Does any of this sound over the top? Mad? Any other words for it?
If yes, then that’s because heartbreak is a spiritual malady, and we all feel it, how we feel it; and where we feel it is in the vastness of our own inner worlds where there are no limits to the depths one can travel….. except the limits we impose on ourselves.
Lick My Evil is a phrase that makes sense when you’re standing in the middle of an emotional apocalypse in your inner landscape.
It’s gathering your strength and turning back to the world and the people who have turned on you and shouting with a sonic boom,
Lick my evil, bitches!
Out of those desolate emotions of that landscape rose a hairy, vengeful beast that erupted from somewhere deep inside me, and I know we all have one.
I know you have one.
This beast was ready for action, ready to sort out my life, and not lie down and let others pick at the carcass of the woman I used to be.
My inner beast growled from the pit of my soul as the scales fell from my eyes, revealing how my world really was at that time, not how I wished it to be.
It was the voice of someone who had discovered that heartbreak doesn’t only expose the people around you.
It exposes parts of yourself you didn’t know existed. Parts that “nice girls”—the girls who want to be liked by everyone—don’t express.
I didn’t like those feelings of abandonment, hurt and resentment. They didn’t fit the sunny person I am.
But pretending those feelings weren’t there wouldn’t have made them disappear.
They would have festered, and to some extent they did, and I let them, then I used them.
What got me through this?
My Earth-based Spirituality. Which I will expand on further in other articles.
I emerged whole, intact and ready to take my life back, but with a new and improved vision and a plan.
And that, dear listeners and readers, is exactly what I did, and I hope to share it with you.
But it took time to unpick what had happened.
I did it clue by clue, eliminating the red herrings along the way, because situations and people aren’t always what they appear to be.
We are all at times both victims and villains of our own story.
That’s really what this blog is.
Not a place where I point at everyone else’s faults, but a place where I investigate my own assumptions, my own choices and the stories I told myself about love. And the magic I used to weave my own future.
People say witches licked poison from the backs of toads to see visions. I don’t know if that’s true. But I do know this: sometimes we have to taste our own bitterness and the bitterness of others before we can see the truth.
Heartbreak reveals uncomfortable truths about human nature, when you are at your weakest. But it also reveals uncomfortable truths about us as individuals.
Lick My Evil is about that moment. When we are most vulnerable, backed against a wall, not knowing who is friend or foe, and trying to sift through the ashes of our lives that have blinded us.
I’ve used this title because it reminds me where this all began and the warrioress inside me, refusing to be broken in the middle of a very human horror story.
Which was corrected with intentional focus, a strong connection to nature and a weaving of the back end of reality.
Does this sound wacky?
Then buckle in because if you stick around and cross the threshold with me, your eyes will be truly opened.
When you know what is possible, anything is possible.
I'm not asking you to agree with my version of events, excuse my behaviour, or see me as the heroine of this story.
It’s simply to invite you to examine your own story with the same honesty I’ve tried to bring to mine, and set yourself on the right road again.
Perhaps that’s all any of us are doing—trying to understand ourselves a little better than we did yesterday.
Before you go...
If any part of my story felt familiar, you’re not alone.
I’d love to hear your story. Leave a comment below. Some of the best conversations begin when someone is brave enough to say, “I feel the same.”
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Until next time,
Keep being your powerful self